I think he just touched me. I was in my 30s when my live-in partner and I set up a role-play group. That came later for me. Women in their 40s are dangerous. For the last 10 years, our marriage had lacked intimacy. We are physically affectionate and greatly attached, but I miss sex and that moment of communion. We flirt and tease each other every day.
It started to feel quite corrosive.
The magic number: how many people have you slept with?
One is a former lover, one is current and one will be a lover in the future. We all know that. A man of my age would expect me to cook his food. I think he just touched me. This was unheard of at the time, but by gosh we had fun. There was a lot of acting out and I lost my virginity shortly afterwards. In my 20s and 30s, there was a clash between my need to experiment and the urge to be in a relationship.